Sometimes you have to break away.
Sometimes you have to feel like you’re going to run out of money.
Sometimes this is what it’s like to live.
Sometimes you cannot be secure.
Sometimes you can feel free.
Sometimes you can heal.
Sometimes you can grow.
Sometimes you can eat cereal at night.
Sometimes you are okay.
You have cereal.
You have your breath.
Sometimes you want to roam the Earth.
Sometimes you want to connect with every soul.
Sometimes you want to live in every corner of the world.
Sometimes things are crazy just for the sake if it.
Sometimes taking a leap is boundless.
Today I am playing this Dan Croll song on repeat, because sometimes music is all that makes sense:
The lioness hunts for food for herself and her cubs only to have the lion almost immediately take it for himself. She chooses her mate and lashes out at him if he is not satisfactory. He cowers away. The lioness does what she needs to do, while also making sacrifices. But she is the true leader of her den.
More and more throughout my journey of chronic pain I find myself needing to be in the natural world. I am my true self in the ocean, on top of a mountain or in a forest. If I don’t see or feel water for a long period of time I feel restless and off. I feel immediately healed when I return to it.
I feel more and more insignificant as a human when I see what nature can do.
Realizing this has helped me accept my health the way it is.
Realizing this has helped me stay positive during a stressful political era.
Realizing this has helped me change my lifestyle to one that harms the planet as little as possible.
Realizing this has made me see I am no lioness.
But I can learn from her while I am here.